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I really don't know what to believe in anymore. I know that all I want is just a tight group of friends that I can rely on & trust & do everything with. It seems like the more I look for it & want it, the more it doesn't happen. I was hoping that we could all be just a close group but I'm not feeling that anymore. I lost hope in everything that I ever wanted while CJ isn't here. I guess I'll just rely on myself for everything now. I don't know if I'm pms-ing or just trippin out but I'm beginning to lose interest in me & mel's friendship. She's kinda changing & it's not for the better. She's just a REAL bitch and I honestly can't stand that. She seems so proud of it to be myspacing about it. That just annoying the shit outta me. I just can't stand her right now. She called me today and I just wasn't feelin the convo. I'm trying to mend things with camarin right now and I know she doesn not support that. I'm predicting that things will get better w/ cam & things will just fall apart with Mel. I mean whatever, she has other friends now. I don't think she even knows the meaning to a friendship..Actually, I don't know either. I've gone through so many friends, I just don't know. I had a lot of really great friends back home but of course I moved out here & that changed. I just want my husband here. I dont care so much for stuff like that if he was here. I mean...i did but now I wouldn't. I realize that all I really need in my life is my husband and my kids..and some other ppl I have in mind..but we'll see.

i have a bad case of insomnia. eversince cj left, i haven't slept before 12am at all. when he was here, we'd be in bed around 10..sometimes 9! ugh. I MISS HIM, you guuuyyys...It's been almost a month since he left. I feel miserable without him right now, especially since it's this late & i can't sleep. 

Thanks saha & cee =]

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1. Each player starts with 8 random facts/habits about themselves.
2. People who are tagged, write a blog post about their own 8 random things, and post these rules.
3. At the end of your post you need to tag 8 people and include their names.
4. Don’t forget to leave them a comment on their blog and tell them they’ve been tagged, and to come back and read your blog for the whole story

1. I LOVE onions

2. I DVR rachel ray, the tyra show, and oprah

3. My husband is better at tweezing my eyebrows than myself =P

4. I used to be an avid weed smoker

5. I donate my clothes/kids clothes/household items to the salvation army every couple months

6. I shiver when I'm really nervous or uncomfortable

7. I'm easily distracted by bright colors

8. I love eating my fries w/ mayo mixed in ketchup OR bbq sauce

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I tag: cam, donna

What compliment are you most often given?

 

Usually people think I'm alot younger than 22. I actually like when they say I look 18. One person thought I could pass as being 15. I was a bit offended at that but still took it as a form of a compliment.

Funny thing happened a couple weekends ago as Cj & I were passing through a FT. Bragg gate. The guard was looking at my ID at question if I was really 22. CJ and I both laughed and I told him that I get that alot. The guard joked with CJ that he's going to call the MP's on him cause I looked too young to be with him. Hahahaha.